“Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention
of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body,
but rather to skid in sideways, martini in one hand, chocolate
in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out,
and screaming ‘WOO-HOO, WHAT A RIDE’.”

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Everything Happens For A Reason

As I had mentioned in my 2nd post, I am involved with The Leukemia & Lymphoma Society's Team in Training to raise money to help find a cure for blood cancers....Even though I have never had a "connection" with anyone who has been stricken with this form of cancer, I felt drawn to this organization......I had no idea why until today....I found out that my lifelong friend's father,  who was like a second father to me growing up, has leukemia.....Now I will be racing for him!

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Rain, Pain and the Whole Crazy Thing

Pouring rain.....adds 5 extra pounds by soaking your clothes
30 mph wind......adds extra resistance
Saying to hell with it and running anyway........Priceless!!!!!!

I guess you have an idea how the weather is here today....I will say no more!!!! :-)

I have been dealing with a nagging hip pain for a few days so I bought a foam roller to see if it would help.....After 2 days of use I have noticed an improvement in my hip.....Thank God no one has been around while I was rolling out the trigger points!!!!! Damn....it hurt!!!!

Monday, November 29, 2010

Monday Ramblings

I hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving!!! Mine was uneventful.... Did I say I hate hate hate cold weather???.....I know...quit bitchin cause nobody cares :-)

I'm glad to be back in TN but I do miss shorts...t-shirt & flip flops year round.....

Does anyone else have insomnia??? It's killing me!!!! I've averaged 4 hours sleep for the last week..... Last night I actually fell asleep at 10 (may have had something to do with beer :-))...Then my damn phone goes off at 2am....A text from my mother.....What the hell????? She swears she sent it at 10pm....Anyway...couldn't go back to sleep so decided to get some work finished.

Now it's 1:00 and I'm through for the day so I'm heading out for a ride....Sun is out.....temps in the 50's.....Beautiful day!!!!!........until you factor in the 30mph winds dammit!!!! I know....bitch....bitch...bitch.

Seriously.....Once I get on the bike or start running I feel exhilarated......It's the thought of the cold that gets to me......Damn mind tricks!!!!!

Speaking of the mind.....Has anyone read The Sedona Method?...If not...check it out....No....I'm not an affiliate....It's just been instrumental in helping me reel in my emotions and figure out why I always sabotage the good in my life.....OK....enough of the self-help crap (for now :-)).....Off to pedal.

Friday, November 26, 2010

Black Friday

How many of you stood in line in the wee hours of the morning with 5000 others to be trampled on as you tried to reach the only 50" LCD TV in the store for the low price of $1????...... News Flash!!!!...... It will be on sale again before Christmas!!! It never ceases to amaze me at the insanity on Black Friday....At least I hope you were smart enough to wear your Road ID :-).

Do something safe like bungee jumping.....skydiving....or riding your bike at night through Compton!!!!

Thank God for Cyber Monday!!!! Carpal Tunnel anyone??

I found a cool site yesterday to track mileage.... dailymile.com ...... I placed a widget here on the blog....I'm sure most of you...like myself have your favorite program to track your progress but this one takes less than a minute to add a workout.....I added my workouts since Sunday but you can go back further if you wish.....

Life took over last night and I didn't get my brick session in.....I did ride 20 miles but when I returned I had family in from out of town and I had to go see them....No big deal since I did get a workout in.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Need My Ass Kicked

I was scheduled to run my first race today...A 5K turkey trot....I woke up at 3:30 with a splitting headache so needless to say I didn't make it to the race....Now I feel fine and I'm going to punish myself :-) with a brick session....25 mile ride and 5 mile run.....I have another 5K in 2 weeks....I just need to get the first one behind me.

My Story

I would love to say I will make this short but that's not my style :-).....

The worst part of anything is getting started and I am guilty of procrastination in starting this blog.......Why am I here? Part healing.....Part accountability......Part motivation.

As a private person, I had reservations about writing about my life for the world to see but I decided that the accountability would keep me on the path and possibly help others.

Here is a brief outline of My Story.

My name is Nate and I currently reside in Bluff City, TN (1 mile from Bristol Motor Speedway for you Nascar fans) I was a multi sport athlete in high school...I attended the University of TN and majored in weight lifting (12oz at a time) :-)......Of course thanks to beer busts and Krystal at 3am I gained 40lbs in 5 months......Over the course of the next 9 years my weight slowly creeped up to 290.....I also fought with depression and severe anxiety along the way.

In 1999 I was engaged to be married and decided it was time to lose weight.....I lost 90 lbs over the course of a year due only to changing my diet....I basically ate vegan with the exception of seafood 3 times a week....I was not working out but I felt great...Over the next 5 years I became very successful but at the expense of my marriage.

She left me 7 years ago on Christmas Eve....I went into a deep depression which I fueled with alcohol, cigarettes and pizza....Over the next 6 months I destroyed everything I had worked so hard to attain....business ventures.....relationships both friends and family...I spent the next couple of years in a volatile relationship still numbing my emotional problems with my vices.....Needless to say my weight had ballooned up to 260.

On Jan. 6, 2007, I met my soul mate.....the love of my life!!!! Our life together would have been something fairy tales are written about.....When we look into each others eyes it is magical!!! Unfortunately my struggles with my demons finally took it's toll.....I moved to Ft Lauderdale in Jan 2009 because I thought I needed a change when in reality I was running from my problems....from life...from myself.
Wine Over Water 10/4/08
Her:Hot   Me:Fat (270)

I feel that everything in life is a lesson and my time in Florida was definitely an experience.....I woke up on New Years Day 2010 with blood all over me not remembering much of the night before. (The picture above is of me (at 260) in the restaurant/bar I was a partner in and my bartender, Ellie).....Apparently I had gotten into a drunken brawl with my business partner's son.I knew it was time to make a change and get my life back on the right path.

I started riding my bike and walking on the beach....I made a decision to leave the restaurant because the environment was not conducive to positive change.....My Love and I started talking again and things seemed to be going much better.....Over the next few months she pulled away again....which I let affect me emotionally.

I planned to fly in to see her at the end of March which didn't work out.....We didn't speak for about 4 months when I made another decision to move back to my hometown in August.....I called her after I was in town for a few days.....We spent time together and all seemed well....until she pulled away again....We talked about this.....She loves me....She wants a future but she is scared....She needs to make sure I am going to stay the course.....I'm not making excuses for her....It is what it is......I want her beside me and she doesn't want to be hurt again......I can't control her actions and feelings.....All I can do is take care of me.....If you love something...let it go...if it comes back it's yours...if it doesn't it never was.

So where am I now? I have a goal of competing in a triathlon so I have been training (with occasional lapses) all year....I have been seriously focused for the last couple of months and sticking to my training plan.....I have lost 50lbs since Jan 1 and train on average 10 hours a week.

I just noticed I have on the same shirt in this picture as I did New Years.....lol....What's the chances?

Last month I was having a couple of "woe is me" days when I came across Leukemia & Lymphoma Society's Team in Training program....This excited me very much and I just sent my paperwork in to be part of the Tennessee team for the Rev3 1/2 Ironman in Knoxville, TN on May15, 2011.....Now when I don't feel like running in the rain or riding that last 5 miles.....I think of the children fighting these terrible diseases and their strength and willpower....My aches and pains are nothing compared to their fight so I get my lazy ass out there and push it.....not for me but for them.

Now that I have caught you up to date.....I can quit procrastinating and post regularly.

My journey started several months ago but my chronicling of it has just begun.....I hope you enjoy the ride!

Monday, November 1, 2010

"Letting Go" movie trailer

Click here to view the movie trailer

I did not mean for this to be my first post but click on the link anyway and check out the video....As you will read in my futures posts, I credit The Sedona Method with guiding me in my decisions and motivation over the past year...This new movie is based on the method.